All the world is waiting for the sun.

My world as I know it.

No matter where I go in life, I seem to always have terrible luck tagging along. I can never seem to catch a break with anything. Love, Cars, Jobs… Bad luck follows them all. Lately, It seems that I just haven’t had a single care in the world about all these problems anymore. I have gone completely numb. I go to work, come home and spend time with my son, do my school work and move on with the next day. The only way that I’ve ever been able to truly feel is by reacting to the music that I am listening to. How could I get this numb? How could I get to the point to where I do not feel anymore? No emotions. It’s a boring story. Living each day without feeling sad or feeling alone. You never realize how much those emotions truly mean to you until they are gone. When your emotions have decided to run off and leave you alone, you’d like to be depressed, but you cannot. You just have a blank attitude. Blank heart. Blank head. 

"And now I’m leaving you lonely again and when you wake from your broken dream, I hope the pain in your world never ends."

"I’ve been opened up. I’ve been shattered by the ones I thought I loved. You left me here like a chalk outline on the sidewalk waiting for the rain to wash away, wash away. You keep coming back to the scene of the crime, but the dead can’t speak and there is nothing left to say anyway… All you left behind is a chalk outline."

"Forgive me, My love. I stand here all alone and I can see the bottom. Promise me you’ll try, to leave it all behind. ‘Cause I’ve elected hell lying to myself. Why have I gone blind? Live another life…"